So much has been going on in my life. . . Things that I have been keeping mum about.. Some have already been officially announced, while some are pending and yet to be made official.
Ok, where do I start?
I turned 29 last week and I'm currently 25 weeks pregnant. The baby is due in October! Yeay! InShaaAllah! ;)
This pregnancy has been a teeny bit challenging, but am doing ok now. With my first one, at this stage, I was already putting on 10kg.. but this one, only 4 kg so far. No appetite for food. How's that? =P At this point, I'm enjoying the little kicks and punches from the little one. Such a nice feeling I tell you. Andddd, Ashayr has been EXTRA clingy, which can be a challenge cos he wants to be with me ALL the time.. Hugging, kissing and "meleser-ing" with me. Rimas but cute la.. haha.. Shall do my best to shower him with as much attention before the second one makes an appearance. :)
I'm sure you want to know if it's a boy or a girl, right? I'll announce it some other time ok. But seriously, it doesn't matter la.. As long as the baby is healthy and fine, I'm thankful enough. :)
As I turn a year older, I realised how important family is. I'm truly blessed with a great partner who shares the same vision, values, principles and goals in life. The husband is God sent. Alhamdulillah. We are very much family-people. Like we enjoy doing things for our family, spending time and money on them, just to make them happy. We are not the flashy sort (at least that's what I think la), but we do our best to manage things and live within our means. We made a promise to do the whole "susah senang kita bersama" deal. Biarlah orang tak tahu kesusahan kita, kerana tak ada perlunya pun mereka tahu.. Dan biarlah kita kongsi masa senang kita bersama dengan orang-orang yang kita sayang..
Allah has been kind to me cos he gave me such a wonderful partner. Till today, I'm very much thankful. MaShaaAllah.
You see, when we practise the art of gratitude, somehow things become much lighter, happier and bearable. I look at successful people with a more positive attitude today. God gave them what they deserve because it is meant for them. Setiap diantara kita ada balasan dan ganjaran yang sudahpun ditentukan Allah.. Jadi janganlah kita persoalkan kenapa sesuatu perkara itu berlaku pada kita.. Redha dan terus berdoa dan berusaha.
Seriously, I have grown much matured with age. I see things differently, I analyse situations with a more positive outlook and I keep my options open. Life is really too short for what ifs and regrets. I wake up in the morning and tell everyone in the house that I love them. I shower my mother with more hugs and kisses nowadays. I give more love because I don't know when God will take away all these blessings from me someday... Semua nikmat dunia ini hanya sementara, kan? Tak guna berhasad dengki, berdendam dan berfikiran buruk tentang orang lain kerana semua perasaan ini hanya akan memakan diri kita. Happy people are thankful people. At least that's what I think.
At 29, I'm blessed for a simple but wonderful life, an awesome and loving partner, my boys that love me unconditionally, the kicking baby in my tummy, a job that I love, a family that cares for me and amazing in laws. Alhamdulillah.
Sometimes I tell myself to not beat myself up so hard for not achieving certain things in life because, hey, look how far I have come. However, I feel sad that I'm not able to share all this joy with the one person I love wholeheartedly and unconditionally, my late grandmother. She made me what I am today. She is the reason why I keep wanting to better myself.
Nenek, I know you're looking and smiling at me from above. Terima kasih kerana membesarkan Nona dan menjadikan Nona seorang wanita yang berjiwa kuat seperti Nenek. I wish you were here with me to share all these happiness and joy that I have in my life right now. No one can ever replace you in my life and I miss you even after 5 years of your passing. I miss your reassuring hugs, your words of motivation and your selfless soul. You're always in my thoughts and prayers. You are my inspiration and you will always be. Nona sayang Nenek.. Al-fateha for Hajjah Nora Haileen Binte Ahmad.
Ok.. tak pasal-pasal air mata dah meleleh kat keyboard ni. Haiz. =S
With that, I end my blog entry. Let's be thankful for what we have now because we will never know till when all these will last.. May we continue to live this life the best way we can and make no room for regrets or any negativity. InShaaAllah. ;)